Tuesday, June 02, 2009
i'm 20! and officially old now haha.
well i had a pretty awesome birthday this year thanks to a whole bunch of people.
firstly to bf of course for spending my birthday eve and birthday with me. :D haha. we went to settlers again and though it may sound lame just two people going to play board games but there are loads of fun games for two people to play with! haha. anw it's a change from movies/shopping etc. yay i love settlers. but we agreed the folks at smu are friendlier than those at clarke quay so we're going back to smu next time. anw thanks for all those late nights and all the effort! you know what i mean so yeah much love bf! (:
thanks to min colleen and bang too for the lovely surprise at jalan kayu. (: must've gained 1kg from eating prata and drinking ice milk tea at 12am in the morning. haha. then it was reckless driving back to colleen's place where we played monopoly till 5am in the morning and had apple struddel. (: much love you girls! thanks for the bangels too! :D
thanks to clarence and yingneng for coming for the so called gathering haha and for the ck top! it fits! haha so thanks guys! and yes to weihao too who's in brunei now! and to boonrong yes! (:
to my family for going to kim gary with me so i can have my favourite baked rice! :D and for getting the yam cake which i love and apparently no one else does. haha sorry dears you'll have to bear with me and my weird liking for yam cakes. oh yes and to my sisters for the enchanted and beyonce dvds which i wanted. i wanted the body shop vouchers more though... haha!
oh yeah thanks to kok too! for being the first person to wish me happy birthday haha he called exactly at 12 midnight and was like 'happy birthday mel am i the first am i the first?!' like it's some contest. haha. but thanks kok! (:
and thanks to everyone else who remembered and wished me through all mediums be it in person or through phonecall/sms/facebook/msn. haha. loves!
first is how even though i'm feeling old, my mind seems to be perpetually stuck at age 18. haha. like that day i went to escape with bf and we went for that go-kart ride, and apparently you have to be at least 18 to be allowed on the ride. i guess i don't look 18 cos the girl asked me how old i was and i said 18 without hesitation, even though at that time i was 19 going on 20. haha and i didn't even realise till halfway through the ride and i just burst out laughing. haha.
maybe cos i had the best year of my life (so far) at 18. maybe cos 18 is like a not too young not too old age that i'd like to remain at. haha. but whatever the case, i don't wanna turn 20. but i will on thursday. sigh.
anw i think everyone who reads this blog would've already known that i did really badly for sem 2, so badly that even i was a little surprised. surprised because i felt like i worked harder this sem than last and yet my gpa fell by almost two grades.
i really struggled with that for a while. sometimes i ask God why he put me in accountancy when i hate it so much and i don't seem to have much of a flair for it. but God works in ways we do not understand and His plans are far greater than mine. and for that reason i trust Him. i may not see His reasons for doing certain things, but i'm sure they're the best for me. (:
all i can do now is do my best for next sem and God will do the rest! (: so i gotta look forward!how many times have we looked back on certain things and think, oh if only i had done this or that. but that's all it is, a big IF. there's really no point looking back and regretting the things that have happened, all we can do is look forward and live life to the fullest.
also, getting upset is a serious waste of energy. sometimes i don't understand why i enjoy emo-ing and getting upset all over again over issues that make me bitter/upset/jealous when i could've been focusing that energy on doing something fun or recalling good memories. seriously life is too short to focus on the negatives, to keep thinking of the what-ifs.
so go ahead, do things that make you happy, that make others happy, instead of things that make you unhappy. that's what i'm gonna try to do.
and that is why i quit my telemarketing job. haha. and i quit after like what a day on the job? heck it wasn't even a day it was half a day cos the job's like 2-6. bottomline is, i was miserable on the job (it's awful having to repeat the same thing over and over again) and i refused to do anything that will make me unhappy and so i quit.
besides i figured i'll have plenty of time to work in the future. in fact my whole life will probably be about work after i graduate. unfrtunately i'm not gonna be getting any of these 'holidays' anymore. so i've decided to enjoy the holidays instead and do things i'd probably won't have time to when the hectic year 2 begins.
certain things have also made me realise how bf and i are in kinda a stable mode right now. and im really thankful for that. esp after the million and one arguments last year. (:
praying for pharmacy now! ahh the stress.
God why? still praying for answers. but it ain't over yet. and i'm still full of hope!
i'm 20! and officially old now haha.
well i had a pretty awesome birthday this year thanks to a whole bunch of people.
firstly to bf of course for spending my birthday eve and birthday with me. :D haha. we went to settlers again and though it may sound lame just two people going to play board games but there are loads of fun games for two people to play with! haha. anw it's a change from movies/shopping etc. yay i love settlers. but we agreed the folks at smu are friendlier than those at clarke quay so we're going back to smu next time. anw thanks for all those late nights and all the effort! you know what i mean so yeah much love bf! (:
thanks to min colleen and bang too for the lovely surprise at jalan kayu. (: must've gained 1kg from eating prata and drinking ice milk tea at 12am in the morning. haha. then it was reckless driving back to colleen's place where we played monopoly till 5am in the morning and had apple struddel. (: much love you girls! thanks for the bangels too! :D
thanks to clarence and yingneng for coming for the so called gathering haha and for the ck top! it fits! haha so thanks guys! and yes to weihao too who's in brunei now! and to boonrong yes! (:
to my family for going to kim gary with me so i can have my favourite baked rice! :D and for getting the yam cake which i love and apparently no one else does. haha sorry dears you'll have to bear with me and my weird liking for yam cakes. oh yes and to my sisters for the enchanted and beyonce dvds which i wanted. i wanted the body shop vouchers more though... haha!
oh yeah thanks to kok too! for being the first person to wish me happy birthday haha he called exactly at 12 midnight and was like 'happy birthday mel am i the first am i the first?!' like it's some contest. haha. but thanks kok! (:
and thanks to everyone else who remembered and wished me through all mediums be it in person or through phonecall/sms/facebook/msn. haha. loves!
watchin u;
at 8:21 AM
Sunday, May 31, 2009
first is how even though i'm feeling old, my mind seems to be perpetually stuck at age 18. haha. like that day i went to escape with bf and we went for that go-kart ride, and apparently you have to be at least 18 to be allowed on the ride. i guess i don't look 18 cos the girl asked me how old i was and i said 18 without hesitation, even though at that time i was 19 going on 20. haha and i didn't even realise till halfway through the ride and i just burst out laughing. haha.
maybe cos i had the best year of my life (so far) at 18. maybe cos 18 is like a not too young not too old age that i'd like to remain at. haha. but whatever the case, i don't wanna turn 20. but i will on thursday. sigh.
anw i think everyone who reads this blog would've already known that i did really badly for sem 2, so badly that even i was a little surprised. surprised because i felt like i worked harder this sem than last and yet my gpa fell by almost two grades.
i really struggled with that for a while. sometimes i ask God why he put me in accountancy when i hate it so much and i don't seem to have much of a flair for it. but God works in ways we do not understand and His plans are far greater than mine. and for that reason i trust Him. i may not see His reasons for doing certain things, but i'm sure they're the best for me. (:
all i can do now is do my best for next sem and God will do the rest! (: so i gotta look forward!how many times have we looked back on certain things and think, oh if only i had done this or that. but that's all it is, a big IF. there's really no point looking back and regretting the things that have happened, all we can do is look forward and live life to the fullest.
also, getting upset is a serious waste of energy. sometimes i don't understand why i enjoy emo-ing and getting upset all over again over issues that make me bitter/upset/jealous when i could've been focusing that energy on doing something fun or recalling good memories. seriously life is too short to focus on the negatives, to keep thinking of the what-ifs.
so go ahead, do things that make you happy, that make others happy, instead of things that make you unhappy. that's what i'm gonna try to do.
and that is why i quit my telemarketing job. haha. and i quit after like what a day on the job? heck it wasn't even a day it was half a day cos the job's like 2-6. bottomline is, i was miserable on the job (it's awful having to repeat the same thing over and over again) and i refused to do anything that will make me unhappy and so i quit.
besides i figured i'll have plenty of time to work in the future. in fact my whole life will probably be about work after i graduate. unfrtunately i'm not gonna be getting any of these 'holidays' anymore. so i've decided to enjoy the holidays instead and do things i'd probably won't have time to when the hectic year 2 begins.
certain things have also made me realise how bf and i are in kinda a stable mode right now. and im really thankful for that. esp after the million and one arguments last year. (:
praying for pharmacy now! ahh the stress.
God why? still praying for answers. but it ain't over yet. and i'm still full of hope!
watchin u;
at 8:56 AM